The only exception

Its midnight. Yes I know. Its in a middle of the night! Its hardly to awake in this hour 12.04 AM. Well since its my off day on Tuesday. Seriously feels damn good like heaven. Anyway, so how yall have been creatures. Fine as always ? Well me too merci. I got so much to share to all. If I remember every single chapter to tell *laughs*

Started when the first day of my job. Imagine a single land underwater sea with full of shark pointing and looking at you like they never seen before nor I shall say a new creature step on their land with a silent emotional. I cant sleep that night before it start work. I always get very nervous on my first day of work, nerve of my mouth shaking like a damage machine. My head chef are quite serious and fierce when first I saw him in the day he interviewed me. In the end, its not that bad after all. 

People told me as a girl, its hard to work in the main kitchen here in Singapore, it is not easy to find a job here, or the bad communication between different country thinks and more. But I shut it all down into a box trying not to believe what they've telling me. I had build up the stairs on my own from the bottom to top in almost 3 years and I dont want to waste it just because its hard. It is hard, as a girl in this line as a chef. Its possibility and I will make them wrong for sure. May it sounds stupid, but the soul ask me to keep trying as my goal. My thoughts said no matter what it is, girls always can do everything like man does. But not all of course. As a girl you cannot be too weak for everything you do. Don't relying on people beside you. Am I correct? 

Its a whole new chapter here, a silent life all I have in me. But I am serious thank God for giving me, my joy of laughter while working with these lovely silly workmates. I met new people, different believers, different countries, different personality and more. What I meant a  silent life is actually I still haven't found my actual warm peace place here. 

I got almost sick last night. Tummy not very well and got an allergic on my both hands. Fml -,- Gonna be healing soon though. So, I moved out last two weeks from hell house. Sorry forgive my rudeness. Its seriously like hell. A house of a family doesn't looked like warm sweet home. They all are totally a bad shape. Whole family are smokers, love to gambling, and fights with their own parents sometimes. The owner like to complain about us trying to find something bad sense on us even a little thing. I swear I dint cause any trouble but the way they treat us like kind of shit. And so I was like, what the hack? you are not my mom. My parents taught me very well. I respect them all and they just dont. I rarely stay back accept back for night. 

So right now I am peacefully moved out and stayed at my friends cousins room. How lucky I am. I pray as always every morning and night to thank God for guiding me every steps I take. Staying quite near to town and its a marvelous place. Its only about 5-10 mints reached mrt, they include malls, restaurants, cafe, fast food, fair price and all. Believe me, you no idea how easy it is. You just reached there and you got everything. And one of my favourite place of all in Singapore. Theres a lovely beautiful park just beside my room. Just across one bridge. Its a big park, free flow for bringing pets along. How awesome is that. Sigh, if only my dog are with me right now' I would bringing him to the park everyday. 

Getting there

Okay. So pretty much things getting better here I guess? New room (moving out soon), new job, new friends, new environment, new living.. Guess we had a luck. I am gland it wont end up nothing for I have gone a long way to climb up hill. All I know Love would save each of my day. I had a strong support from mom and dad and all of my friends and families members. I rarely connect to mom and dad since I got here in Singapore. The reason why is because if I connect them very close, I would have a very weak heart. And I understand why people would say cry it out;  it will makes you feel better. 'Oui (means Yes-French) I accept the fact. Still of course I'll updated to mom about my life here. 

I never felt so lonely, even thought one of my friend stay with me. It feels a lonely grown lady walks alone most of the time. Which lonely bring me to no family and only 2% of my friends are here. Some of them are studying, working, working and yes working. My elder sister staying here too, we are very close. We meet up sometimes but not most of the time. Maybe twice a month. Shes busy with her work too btw. So as you can picture what I describe about, its not hard in living alone but is to take courage by build up Love from new place like a place to home that's all. 

Talked about myself, I used to be very naughty and had some little problems with my vocabulary language or maybe I called it Chavs a little? Not in a crime way, bad but self independent. Well it was long time ago. But now I had a dream to complete, a dream that I really wanted for my own future.  I've change a alot since I moved here. Less vocabulary language, less middle fingers (laughs), no smokes, no beers, no late out... well not that bad after all. I learned how to live in their country. What I have review. my very own first county in Sabah, Chinese people are polite, by asking with low voice and they patiently answer the question. But if in Singapore, with huge numbers of different culture in a big city. One is one that's all. You asked another, they put you one step ahead. If you get what I mean.  

Its good to understand them, so that is what makes you have the courage in living. When it comes to my new environment job as a Chef. First it was pretty nervous. serious. I got nervous all the time when comes new to me what? I may looked calm, but you never knew how I have been going. Anyway, so I met almost all of my kitchen crew members. They are cool. Jokes everywhere, same goes to my previous job. And thats the reason why I love to be a Chef. Play hard and work hard. Enjoying life. Maybe because I do also love cooking as well, no describe a reason. Just like Love. A sentence of Love is no other describe. Its hard to explain. 

I am enjoying food here in singapore. They had so much creativity. I'll took as many pictures as I can to introduce yall in instagram. 

Having my holiday tomorrow. And I am tired lately. 

Off to bed now. Au revoir people.